Can you say completely bipolar emotions? That is this week. The most recurring?
At hosanna tonight, a friend of mine prayed for a small group of us to allow God to be in control over our relationships. Another prayed for God to help us know who we should focus on spending time with, to show us who to really pursue those relationships with especially as so many people are leaving and will physically be far apart. Talk about getting at a point that absolutely hits home. I would be the first to say that I put probably too much stake into my friendships, which is probably why I tend to have a hard time trusting people quickly. Though I find that it is the people I can immediately open up to that I end up trusting the most?
The concept of having to say goodbye to so many friends is overwhelming and, to just be a bit more dramatic putting words to my feelings, more than a little bit heartbreaking. It's almost as though you know it is coming, but when it hits, you don't even know how to properly say goodbye. And you just can't say 'until later' to everyone, because you really probably will not see most people again. You just try to reach out grasping at the strings , holding people as close to you as you can without letting them slip away.
- Excitement to see my family.
- Fear of not being able to say goodbye.
- Trying to figure out how to tell some of my good friends that I am afraid that I won't be as important to them in three months as I am now without sounding completely ridiculous.
- Is it okay to be excited about new adventures on two different continents even when you are leaving people behind?
At hosanna tonight, a friend of mine prayed for a small group of us to allow God to be in control over our relationships. Another prayed for God to help us know who we should focus on spending time with, to show us who to really pursue those relationships with especially as so many people are leaving and will physically be far apart. Talk about getting at a point that absolutely hits home. I would be the first to say that I put probably too much stake into my friendships, which is probably why I tend to have a hard time trusting people quickly. Though I find that it is the people I can immediately open up to that I end up trusting the most?
The concept of having to say goodbye to so many friends is overwhelming and, to just be a bit more dramatic putting words to my feelings, more than a little bit heartbreaking. It's almost as though you know it is coming, but when it hits, you don't even know how to properly say goodbye. And you just can't say 'until later' to everyone, because you really probably will not see most people again. You just try to reach out grasping at the strings , holding people as close to you as you can without letting them slip away.
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